My So Called Life - The Good, The Bad, The Ugly

Embrace life -- both the sweet days and the bitter...embrace the joy and the sadness...the successes and the defeats -- for all of these things, both good and bad, have made you who you are.

Friday, April 15, 2005

Blogging - Back on Track I have been out of it the last week or so on here. The flu really hit me and knocked me off of my blogging schedule. I will have a lot of stuff to blog about after this weekend when I visit Geno in San Antonio. I hope it goes well. I will definately update you guys when I get back.

I am up here at work and just came across a very interesting doctrine in traffic law. It does not apply in the state of Texas but it is interesting none the less. It is called the Doctrine of Last Clear Chance....

This statute states that whoever has the last clear chance to avoid an accident must do so....that means even if you have the right of way, you must attempt to avoid the accident. If you do not make an attempt to avoid the accident, you can be found at fault.

There are so many laws out there concerning auto accidents. I am glad I work in the industry. At least I have an understanding of what goes on.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Job Situation - Should I Switch for Money?

Ok...a recruiter contacted me last week about moving over to work at Esurance. Its an online insurance company. They are offering me a bit more money and they have a bonus structure. I am just not sure I wanna leave my current company. My job has good benefits, its a solid company, and has a great profit sharing program. Hmm...what do you think?

Monday, April 11, 2005

Alive and Well - I'm Over the Flu

Ok - I am so sorry guys for taking so long in updating this Blog - I was so sick last week. I had a fever of over 102 for a few days. I have never felt so awful in my entire life.

I am at work right now taking a break to update the blog. My desk exploded while I was gone, but my co-workers were awesome and actually worked most of my files while I was gone.

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

Very Sick - The Flu Sucks

I have been sick the last 3 days with the Flu and it looks like I will be home from work tomorrow - i cant stand this - will blog more when I feel better!

Monday, April 04, 2005

Grocery Store Dating - Does it Really Work? I decided to go to the grocery store today and I went to the grocery store in the gay area of Dallas. And it suddenly occurred to me that I have never met anyone in a grocery store. Now my straight friends always talk about meeting cute people in the produce section, etc...but I have never met anyone, so today I actually watched the people as I shopped.

All I can say is....what a disappointment!

I only saw one guy that I thought was cute...but damn was he HOT. He had a shaved head, a goatee, a masculine sense about him, and he had a very nice body with great arms. Phew! But alas, he left the store before I could talk to him.

So I am still left to see if you really can meet someone at a grocery store. At least I have new found confidence that the scenery can be nice. Now dating, that is another story yet to be written...

Sunday, April 03, 2005

A Blah Day - With Nothing Accomplished

Today was just a blah day - I did nothing productive all day. I simply slept in and relaxed all day. I had to get my tired repaired b/c of that damn brick I hit in the road on Saturday morning.

But it was ok to simply do nothing. Some days are best used to just relax. That is what today was. I think I am going to go to Starbucks now and simply relax.

I was going to go and see a movie with a guy I had been talking to but I was on the telephone with my mother for so long that it was too late into the day. My dad is having some heart problems so I had to talk to her about that.

Oh well - onto Starbucks again for some more relaxing!

Snoozing - What's the point?

My roommate always sets his alarm for two hours before he has to get up to go to work. Then he snoozes his alarm for over an hour. I dont understand that. Why not just set the alarm for the actual time that you have to wake up. His alarm is SO loud that it wakes me up everytime. Maybe next time it happens I should just unplug it and throw it out the window!

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The Pope Has Died - A Sad Day!

According to an email issued from Rome, the Pope has passed on.

Whether you believe in God or not, the Pope represented something important on this earth!

Rest In Peace Pope John Paul II.

Coming Out to New People - A Difficult Decision!

There is this really cute girl at work named Cortney. She is just the nicest, sweetest girl, and she is very pretty to boot. We were sitting at my desk just chatting for a bit about life and work, etc. I mentioned my blog to her and was telling her about my last post (The Murphy's Law). The I realized that she actually did not know I was gay. Now I don't give a shit who knows whether I am gay or not. But we all know, that the you have to be careful about work. You dont want to have to come into a hostile work environment. Sometimes its just easier keeping that part of your life on the down-low instead of making it front page news on the office newsletter. So instead of actually showing her my weblog I summarized it for her.

As we were talking, I was thinking how she would respond to me being gay. I think she would be so much fun to take out and go for drinks whether it was at a gay or straight bar. She went to A&M which leads me to believe that she leans a little on the conservative side but I know she is not THAT conservative. So the question still plagues me. I tell her or not. It honestly doesnt even matter. We never hang out after work or anything like that. Sometimes its just freeing to be able to communicate these things to the people you work with.

Oh well...for now I will not make it an issue. I will just live my life and if she happens to find out, then its all good. Most people in this office HAVE to know I'm gay anyway. I have been here over 3 years and have never mentioned a girlfriend and have no photos on my desk. If I were them, I would think I was gay. Oh well...for now we have an unspoken agreement and understanding. I will keep it at that for now!

Murphy's Law - If something bad can happen, IT WILL! I went out last night to dinner at Ojeda's (a local mexican place with great margaritas) with friends and was looking forward to having an awesome Friday night. After dinner, we all joined up at the Round Up (the local country gay bar) for some drinks. Now being a good boy for once, I did not get drunk and went home early for many reasons but one was that I had to be at work early this morning! Once I fell asleep everything went wrong from there!

My roommate woke me up at 12:30 am - wasnt really his fault but oh well!

I could not fall asleep for over an hour b/c he was typing his work notes!

I was woken up in the middle of the night by my firealarm going off - UGH! And they supposedly just fixed it yesterday!

I overslept this morning - I woke up at 7:45 am and I have to be at work at 8:00 am and I live 35 minutes from work!

I am less than 2 miles from work when I run over a fucking brick in the middle of the roadway. My tire goes immediately flat, I lose contol of my car and go into the grassy ditch (or Valley I should say b/c it was so damn deep). I had to slowly move my car back up to the side of the roadway.

I attempted to change my tire but could not get the nuts off of the tire b/c they were on there so damn tight. Last time I had my tire changed was a NTB Tire. They use those hydrolic tools and man it is impossible to loosen a nut after its been put on by machine.

So the roadside assistance guy comes to replace my tire..and guess what...MY SPARE TIRE IS FLAT!!! I was just like...are you fucking kidding me! At this point I had to laugh. So he temporarily patched my spare tire so I could get to work.

I have to air it back up after work to get it to a shop or my house depending on how far my car can make it.

What a wonderful Saturday!

A Night Out - A Boring Time

I am so fuckin pissed off - this makes like the fuckin 5th time i have written out an entire blog only to have it fuckin erased by this god forsaken program. It's almost not even worth blogging - I am not even going to try and re-type my blog.

In summary, I felt out of place and not a part of my friends group tonight at dinner so I came home early.

Sometimes, blogger just sucks!

But ya still gotta love it.

Friday, April 01, 2005

A Gripe about my Roommate

So as some of you know, I have a roommate. We are not going to be roommates after our lease is up at the end of April. For the most part he is a good roommate. He has his irritating moments, as do I. We are not perfect but we get along pretty well and overall he is a nice guy. There is just one thing that gets to me: HE DOESNT EVER LISTEN TO ME WHEN I AM TALKING! Every time I come home he tells me about his day, his gripes, the complaints (he manages a restaurant so there is a lot to gripe about), the problems with his waiters and servers...the whole bit. And I listen to every word. I respond to let him know I am listening...I interject to probe and make him feel like I am interested in his day. And for the most part I am interested. But every time the subject turns to ME, he suddenly finds other things he needs to focus on. He loses interest in the conversation and mid-sentence will simply walk off and start focusing on something else.

In one classic example, we were on the steps outside of my apt and we were having apple martinis and talking. He was telling me about his day, his job, etc....we talked for about 25 minutes or so about his life and his job...and I kid you not, the moment (and I mean only seconds here) we started talking about me, he literally picked his martini glass up, walked to his car got some stuff out of his car and walked into the apt. All the while I was still standing next to the stairs with my jaw part open, part laughing, part in astonishment at what I was experiencing. The ultimate blow off and slap in the face. The ultimate "I dont give a shit about your day" statement. I could not believe it. I simply laughed to myself and walked inside and stored it away in my file system (yes Sam, that reference is for you).

Now, while that is an extrememe but true example, it is by far not the only one. Just tonight, we were sitting on the bed and I decided to tell him about an experience I had at work. The moment I started talking to him, he picked up his phone and started playing on it. Not once did he respond verbally until a few minutes after I had finished my story. And his comment only showed that he had not listened to a word I had said, as his comment was totally inconsistent with what I had been discusising.

I mean...ya know....I can understand if you are not totally interested in the work or life of a roommate, but you should at least have the decency and respect to ACT like you care. I mean afterall, they are your roommate and friend. I am not always interested in his day, but I make an effort to seem interested. I make an effort to be interested. That is all I ask. Is for the effort.

I mean....come on...95% of the time it is ME who does the dishes, ME who cleans the bathroom, ME who cleans the kitchen, ME who makes the bed, ME who organizes the living room, ME who cleans up the bedroom, ME who takes out the trash.

I know this has turned into a bitch session, but sometimes that is what you need to do. I really do LIKE my roommate. He lent me 400 dollars to have a root canal done several months ago and I am just now paying him back, so he has definately helped me out. And I know I have screwed up as a roommate. So I know that no one is perfect. But all I ask is for a little effort in making me feel like he takes an interest in my life outside of "who I'm talking to on" or "how big is that guy's dick". Sometimes, I feel like those are the only times he seems to get excited about a conversation. The only other times he is that excited is when the conversation is about his job, his life, his dating life, his new job possibility, his computer, his car. That is what it seems we always talk about.

Maybe Im a little jaded, and obviously this is a straw that broke the camel's back scenario. But its true, I really do like my roommate, just needed to vent out into the unknown. We all need to do that. And tomorrow I will come home and ask how his day was, because I REALLY do wanna know...