My So Called Life - The Good, The Bad, The Ugly

Embrace life -- both the sweet days and the bitter...embrace the joy and the sadness...the successes and the defeats -- for all of these things, both good and bad, have made you who you are.

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Surrounded By Groups Of Friends - A Little Bit Of Envy

Each and every time I come to Starbucks, I am surrounded by groups of people who are laughing and joking and talking. They are smiling, frowning, discussing, chatting, connecting, and enjoying each other's presence.

I am always watching...alone.

I am envious because I want what they have.

A solid group of friends in my life to laugh with, joke with, connect with, and live life with.

Sometimes I feel like I lack that...and I do not know why

I have some very close friends in life...a few best friend scattered across the land in various states and I am thankful for them...but sometimes I long for that group of friends that has always eluded me.

Maybe that is not how my life is meant to be...and that is ok...

I Went To Church - First Time In Almost 4 Years

Just letting you all know because I know you care...





this post was just an fyi but due to comments and emails received I decided to disable comments for this post.

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Thanksgiving Is Almost Upon Us - What Am I Thankful For?

The last few days at work have been so stressful. I have almost reached the breaking point time and time again. So I thought I would make a list of some of the things I am thankful for in my life right now just to make sure I keep perspective on things. This is not an all inclusive list...just some things that come to mind.


I am thankful for my best friends in life.
I am thankful for my family
I am thankful for the new friends I have made in Atlanta
I am thankful for coming to Atlanta over 1 year ago
I am thankful for the memories I hold from Dallas
I am thankful for my job that pays my bills
I am thankful for my new car :-)
I am thankful for my new apartment
I am thankful for that little voice in my head that reminds me to do good
I am thankful for my conscience
I am thankful for my photographs of the people in my life
I am thankful for new beginnings
I am thankful for random acts of kindness
I am thankful for renewed hope in the goodness of people
I am thankful for the promise of tomorrow
I am thankful for the release of leaving yesterday behind
I am thankful for alone time
I am thankful for the people who love me all over the world
I am thankful for my coffee in the morning and tea at night
I am thankful for good wine and pleasant conversation by candlelight
I am thankful for goodnight kisses
I am thankful for sweet dreams
I am thankful for hot water in the winter and a cool pool in the summer
I am thankful for coffee shops
I am thankful for walks in the park
I am thankful for time
I am thankful for happiness and joy
I am thankful for smiles that make me laugh
I am thankful for tears that make me grow
I am thankful for good times and bad for the make me a better person
I am thankful for second chances
I am thankful for being one of a kind
I am thankful for vodka - any flavor will do
I am thankful for all those things I have not listed but are present in my life
I am thankful that I have more things to be thankful for than can be put in one list

Sunday, November 19, 2006

Cranberry, Vodka, Politics, and Religion - A Talk With My Sister

I talked to my sister last night for about 1 1/2 hours on the phone. At first it was a normal, casual catch up session about our lives. Then the conversation turned to religion, politics and the like. My sister is much more conservative than me, probably votes republican 90% of the time, and is a very devout Christian. I am the liberal dark horse who now votes democratic 90% of the time, and am also a Christian (you can read my testimony on this blog if you want). So as you can already tell this was definitely meant to be an interesting conversation. I will give you just some of the highlights. We agreed on some points and disagreed on many.

Gay Marriage

Why waste time. Of course there were differences here. My sister has a huge problem with gays taking the word marriage and applying it to their unions because in her view the bible clearly states that gay marriage is wrong and not condoned. I told her that it was a matter of semantics at that point. If she did not like the word marriage, then substitute the phrase civil union or whatever she wanted. I explained to her that the main objective in the eyes of many gay couples was to obtain equal rights. There are over 1100 right given through marriage that gays are not automatically given. My sister stood by her argument from a theological standpoint but I told her that you do not govern from theology.

She went on to say that she does not like activist judges legislating law when that is not their job. She states that the judges are there to interpret the law...not to make the law. She states that activist judges have allowed gay marriage and civil unions to occur without giving the people the right to decide for themselves. I reminded my sister that back in 1954, 9 activist judges on the Supreme court basically re-wrote law and stated that separate but equal was to be no more. They in essence created the new "law" of de-segregation. I further told my sister that in my opinion if it had been put to the American public, there would be no way in hell that in 1954 a majority of Americans would have voted to desegregate. If not for those "activist" judges, equal rights and opportunity would have been denied to the African American community. Just like those groups back in the 1950s, there are groups of people today like my sister that want to deny rights to certain people.

Now my sister in no way believes that gay people should be discriminated against. She just has very strong religious beliefs that influence her ideas. It is likely that my sister and I will continue to disagree on this point.

Politics - Democrat vs Republican

Our talk began as a general Democrat vs Republican ideology discussion. We talked about the midterms, etc. My sister started off by saying this wonderful phrase:

"Well the democrats have 2 years to prove themselves so lets see if they can do any better"

To which of course I responded:

"Two years...are you kidding me??? Bush has had SIX years and hasn't done shit to balance the budget, decrease spending, or save social security. He hasn't done anything in 6 years and you and other republicans have supported him during that time so now you are going to require the Democrats get hard core results in only 1/3 the time? It is that kind of thinking that makes our country look backwards to the rest of the world. That logic makes no sense...no wonder Bush is your leader!"

My sister further stated the following:

"The problem with the democrats is that they run their politics from the left but we will have to see if they can govern from the middle."

Oh god...to which I responded:

"Heather, if you would research the house seats that the democrats won, you would see that most of them came from conservative republican districts...these democrats did not win these seats by running die hard liberal campaigns. They were moderate democratic platforms. And speaking of governing from the middle...when was the last time that Bush ever governed and ran his Presidency from the middle. Bush is a right winger and everyone knows it. So do not criticize the left wing of the democratic party until you are ready to face the demons on the right!"

And...Oh how we talked about Dubya...and talked about him...and talked about him...and talked about him some more. Being from Texas, I have an interesting perspective since he was also my governor. My sister likes Bush...a lot more than she is willing to admit. I used to like Bush...a point I do not like to admit. I voted for him the first time. Then came to my senses and voted against him the second time. My sister and I talked about him as President and here is how that went.

The Iraq War

I disagree with the Iraq war. That is not to say that I do not fully support and hope and wish the best for our troops. My brother is in the military and is serving in the middle east so this point is very sensitive to our family. I told my sister that the United States is now borrowing money to finance our wars. China has become our 2nd largest "lender" nation behind Japan. We are in essence borrowing money for this war..etc. Needless to say, my sister supports the war, and supports the moves that Bush is making around the world to attack "terror". I think Bush has taken advantage of people's fear to advance his political agenda. We would not need to borrow money if George W. Bush would handle our finances better....which leads us to our next topic of discussion.

Finances

George Bush has some idiotic thinking that you can CUT taxes, INCREASE spending, and decreased the deficit and the national debt. Well its not going to happen when you give oil companies and big business massive tax breaks and expect the middle class to pay the rest. Bush acts like a kid in a candy store with a black American Express card...you know the kind...the one with no spending limit...he just spends and spends...borrows and borrows...and he does not care...

My sister and I did not agree on much. But I will say this...she held her ground on what she believed and for the most part was able to explain why she believed what she does. Even though I disagree with most of it, I am very glad that my sister and I can have these discussions. Even though we disagree, I believe they could actually bring us closer together..

How ironic...

Saturday, November 18, 2006

The Dallas Cowboy Cheerleaders - Making Of The Team

So the last few weeks I have been completely into this show called "The Dallas Cowboy Cheerleaders: Making The Team". It has been quite interesting to watch the girls compete for these spots on the team. It is alwasy an eye opener to see how exactly the choices are made.

Not to mention that I love Dallas and I love the Cowboys.

I cannot really say that any of the girls are dimwits either. Many of them are or used to be professionals in the business world. Some are young out of school..etc...

Growing up in Dallas, it was always awesome to see the cheerleaders come out onto the field at Texas Stadium b/c I knew they WERE the standard for football cheerleaders :-)

So lets here it for the BOYS...Cowboys that is...and the GIRLS that cheer them on!

YEE-HAW!!!!

Monday, November 13, 2006

Democrats Win Congress - A Rebuke To Bush

The year was 2000 and the former Governor of Texas, George W. Bush won, stole, or whatever his way into the White House. Believe it or not I actually voted for him the first time. Having grown up in Texas my whole life and having met George W. Bush, I had an idea of what he was like. He came across as a moderate in Texas...someone who worked with members of both parties. Looking back he was able to work with members of both parties b/c in Texas there may be different parties but ALL are conservative. But anyway I digress...

So he gets swept into office and he becomes this conservative force knocking down all barriers between him and a conservative new world order. Some of those like me who voted for him felt betrayed on many issues...fiscaly, socialy, domestic policy, foreign policy..etc, etc, blah, blah, blah.

Most, if not of us all felt this drawing to him after 9-11...his forcefulness, his patriotism, his national pride. He made us proud to be Americans at a time when our nation was suffering. We along with the world gave him this latitude to go forth and attack terror. Soon...though some of us again would feel betrayed.

So four years go by and some of us hope that maybe the mistake will be corrected. The nation voted and Bush won 51% - 49%...not quite a mandate but it was taken as such......

Now I dont want to be considered a Bush hater...I am sure he is a super nice guy. A God fearing guy...probably a great husband and father...but as my President, he has let me down.

I for one am glad that FINALLY in the 6th year of his Presidency, the people spoke up and finally demanded that he listen. Now...he wont go UNCHECKED, UNBALANCED, and UNCONTROLLED. The people spoke and he had to change course. I am not under the idea that major changes will happen with the Democrats in control of Congress. What I am excited about is the CHECK it will place on the Executive branch which has gone haywire under Bush.

Even though I do not approve of most things done in his Presidency, I BELIEVE that it can be saved and salvaged. All Bush has to do is LISTEN. I think that many times that appears to be his biggest weakness.

He seems to be on a mission to change the world, but I think it is easier to change the world if you listen to what it needs rather than force it to take what you have.

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Some Good Changes - Hopefully More To Come

So yeah...in the last few weeks some great things have happened. I have a brand new awesome apartment and a brand new car.

So now I am trying to work out everyday to get my body in shape.

Once I get that done, short term goals will be completed.

A part of me really wants a boyfriend...someone to share things with, etc...blah blah blah..lol

Before that happens though I need to really be happy with myself...

Just living it day by day....

I Bought A New Car - 2007 Honda Civic