My So Called Life - The Good, The Bad, The Ugly

Embrace life -- both the sweet days and the bitter...embrace the joy and the sadness...the successes and the defeats -- for all of these things, both good and bad, have made you who you are.

Saturday, June 23, 2007

I Have Been Really Sad Lately - But ...

I do not know why....and it really sucks...

What Are Your Values - Look Inside And See!




Your Values Profile



Loyalty:

You value loyalty a fair amount.
You're loyal to your friends... to a point.
But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties.
Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself.


Honesty:

You value honesty a fair amount.
You're honest when you can be, but you aren't a stickler for it.
If a little white lie will make a situation more comfortable, you'll go for it.
In the end, you mostly care about "situational integrity."


Generosity:

You value generosity a fair amount.
You are all about giving, as long as there's some give and take.
Supportive and kind, you don't mind helping out a friend in need.
But you know when you've given too much. You have no problem saying "no"!


Humility:

You value humility a fair amount.
You tend to be an easy going, humble person.
But occasionally your ego takes over.
You have a slight competitive streak - and the need to be the best.


Tolerance:

You value tolerance highly.
Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you...
You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends.
You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them.

Monday, June 18, 2007

Dating In The Gay World - Starting Late in Life

So I was watching this show today on TLC called Little People, Big World. The oldest son went on his first date to his Winter Formal Dance. His mom was talking about how this will teach him how to interact with girls, how to be polite, and how to learn etiquette.

Suddenly it made me think...what would my life be like if I had the opportunity to date guys during my teenage years the same way that straight guys date girls. How would the experience have changed me? How would I be different today?

I mean overall I did not start too late in life. I started dating and had my first boyfriend at 19...but still, the experience of learning how to date early in life was missed.

But one thing that always comes to mind is that there are countless number of men who came out later than me...had it harder than I did...and some who for some reason find it difficult or impossible to come out to this very day.

So in the end, I guess I just take life as it comes. It is always easy to look back at life and think about what could have been or what should have been. But that never changes how things actually were and doesn't change how things are...

And I for one, am happy about how everything turned out...

Saturday, June 16, 2007

Mike Nifong Got What He Deserves - What A Disgrace!

I have no sympathy for him at all - he has ruined the lives of the 3 Duke Lacrosse players, hurt Duke University, hurt the North Carolina community that he served, has tarnished the justice system, destroyed the faith of people in our system of justice, and finally got what he deserved....disgraced and disbarred...

How does it feel Mr. Nifong?!?!?!

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Your Life Belongs To You - And No One Else

Every now and then I am overcome with such a feeling of accomplishment about my life. It is interesting because this feeling does not always hit me. And many times, I find myself on the opposite end of the spectrum, feeling disappointment and left wanting for the things I have yet to accomplish. Yet when I really think about it, I am proud of my life. I am proud of what I made it. I can look back over my first 28 (almost 29) years and be very proud that for the most part, I did not give into pressure of doing what others wanted me to do...or being what others wanted me to be...or of thinking what others wanted me to think.

Every aspect of my life has happened because it is what I wanted. Growing up, I rarely got in that much trouble and I did not test my parents as teenager like most do. I never smoked, never drank, never did drugs, and made straight A's throughout high school. I was valedictorian and the university I went to was my choice and only my choice. I did all this not because of some pressure to be good or some pressure to perform. I did this because it is what I wanted...it is how I wanted to be. I wanted to succeed academically and I wanted to push myself.

In college, I chose to go to church because I wanted to and not because of some pressure I felt from other students or the university. I chose which faith to follow and to this day my beliefs and my theology remain mine and are not forced to change by what others think of it.

I chose my career after college based on what I wanted to do...I wanted to make a difference so in turning down a high paying job with IBM, I proceeded to work with kids...to try and make a difference by teaching. I chose that path regardless of what others told me that a lower salary and lower promotion opportunity would hurt me.

I chose to come out when I wanted to and not when it was dictated by society or by others...

I could go on and on about my choices, my actions, my ideas, and the paths I have chosen in my life. But the important thing that always comes to mind is that they are mine and no one else's.

The beauty of owning your life is that good or bad, in success or in defeat, everything is yours to celebrate. Celebrate the good, the bad, and the ugly. Revel in everything that shapes you to be a better person. I know I do. And during the refining process that life sometimes puts you through, when you feel like your life has not been worth it, just remember that it is your life and no one else's.

You have the right and the ability to make it what you want. No matter where you are or what you do, no one can take that from you.

Friday, June 01, 2007

Such A Romantic Song - What Does It Means To You

Hey guys - I absolutely love this song - In a weird way it is so romantic and vulnerable to me. Let me know what each of you feels when you hear this song. I am going to leave this post as the newest one for a while. I am interested in what everyone feels when they hear it.

Does it reach down deep into anyone else's heart besides mine?